Yesterday was a very teary-day for me, emotions HIGH!! But life needs to go on...
I have start to look at dates for our next and last IVF. and to be honest, I am not seeing forward to this. because if this is a BUM-CYCLE, my heart will not heal forever. And my whole life will change.
I never think there will be a best date for a cycle, because if you go now you miss that show, birthday, holiday, meeting...you just need to put your head in the bees nest. I am scared to go because I know this is the end, so now its like every minute not going is like postponing the end.
and every single girl I know is pregnant...when the fuck is it my turn, dammit!!!
The reflex girl can only see me on Tuesday...waiting is not for me at all.