Haloo I was not gone-missing-sleeping-immigrating
or what else…. I was just so busy with my book!!!
WowwwwwowwwwwWowww, It took me by
surprise with just so many people that wanted my book!
I still are abit in a bubble of what??? Did I
realy did it???? Gollie Gush! And the feedback took the wind out of my sails!
I think while writing there was a certain
aspect you wanted for the readers.You
hope they don’t find your book boring…think it was total crap! And then you get
all of these texts and emails and calls of what they think about it.
For two weeks I was in some shock and it took
me back to how damm hard this journey was and to get the feedback of how many
women out there is feeling so freaking alone on this road they have been stuck too!!
A BIG THANX to all of you who bought my
BIG NEWS!!!!! BIG NEWS!!!!! BIG NEWS!!!!!
My book are on Amazon Kindle.
are not ready due to the publishers that struggle to get it uploaded the right
way. It is in process and will be ready hopefully soon.
Thanx for the overwhelming response to my book!!! I can only say thank you all!!
as you can see, one blue balloon is missing!! this is what happen when you takes photos with kids and balloons...."mommy there goes the blue balloon" but after all who wants to live in a perfect world!!
Something amazing that happen the day after the release...
6years ago when I lost the last baby with the ectopic pregnancy, I nearly died and my body when into shock. Then I realize I have lost some of my memory. I could not remember names , places ect. It was bad for me but what can you do?? I suppose sometimes your body block some stuff. And then the day after the release...
My memory can back after 6 years!!! I miracle!!
So to have write the book was meant to be ... It was a setting free!!
At last my book that I was
busy with are finish, done, have-come-to-end have reach the final!
Why I have write this book:
#this is my release!!
#to release all the emotions that have infected my body for
I have write this book to set myself FREE, to RELEASE me
from years of infertility that toxified me, my body and my soul.
#It was something I just needed to do for myself.
#it’s for my kids to read in future to see how much I wanted
and if one person in this
caught-up- infertility-world feel less alone
IT WAS ALL WORTH IT!!
day I received my first hard copy of the book I cried for two days non-stop. It
was this huge relieve!! On Friday I have received my printed books (I know this
sound like bragging, but I am so damn proud of myself!). Wow I did it!!
since Friday so much have happened (will tell you later), so much releasing
have happened. I still cannot believe it! I actually want to do a warrior dance!!
this is what’s it’s all about:
Imagine stepping into the shoes of someone who is diagnosed
with infertility and is unable to start a family. Imagine how the situation
captures your whole life: your friendships, your emotions, bank account and
your marriage. It make you feel expose. It diminishes the way you think about
yourself and finds you peeing on sticks all the time with a forced and sad
smile plastered on your face after hearing of yet another pregnancy
announcement. You get caught up in the world of doctors, needles, specialists, tests,
medication, bloodwork, time, constant uncertainty, pain and waiting. You will
dread the question, “so when are you having a baby?”
This was my world for ten long years. A world of whirlwind
emotions: Emotions of hope, denial, grief, bargaining, anger, depression,
sadness and acceptance.
…and against all odds….against all logic… YOU STILL HAVE
This was the balloon release we did on Friday, the balloons was for all the babies I have lost. 10 white and two blues one for my boys.
I have self-publish so at this stage the book are
available from me, only in South Africa, for R190 plus R50 postage.