I am finishing all my to-do-list-things. I am doing it like a retired snail... it just don’t get finish. I have made lists but as you know things just got more and more.

..and I need to start planning the twins 1^st party !! in a week’s time. It is something that came on me o so hard, because a year have past in a flash. I just cannot  believe it has been a year that I have been blessed to be a mommy. Its the best job ever....I think its my dream-job....I am addicted to it.

The twins are so special in their own way, and daily they are doing more and more cute things. We have so much fun, I am scared they will be big to soon, and because I can not have more kids and this is my first and final stage of everything, I need to enjoy it all.

Nika and Wium will have a “Circus Party” why because my whole house and our whole life have change overnight into a CIRCUS !

Our life is colourfull-fun-up-side-down-choatic-never-a-dull-moment-pleasureful and full of excitement just like a ....CIRCUS !!

 

And I cannot wait to bake the cake, suro-sus think  it’s a joke and some of my friends want to babysit the kids , just to see my baking skills ( what so funny??? Do they know my non-baking-skills maybe?)

I can tell you this, I just cannot wait for the party, I love parties .

 

This is the invitations.. made it myself

This weekend was so hot and we just love it!! And the best part the twins are wearing less clothes, which mean.... I can see that most adorable cute little bodies. I just love it!

Yesterday we met up with friends and they were playing in the water the whole day. They like water allot and are not scared at all, thanx for that!.

This weekend for the first time i a very long time, I got time to do some work in and around the house . I painted a wall and a couch and did some gardening, while luv played in the sand put with them. Unbelievable how much you can finish off when they are not around.

 

And I think with summer in the air.... I’ve got loads of energy!

 

This is how you look if you have pass-out...zzzzzzzzzzzzz

The twins are struggling so much with their teeth!!! They’ve got these terrible burning bums ( I can see how sore it is for them) and Wium are getting very high fevers.

And this whole week I am just having an eye on him, because his fever was running very high, especially at night time. What means not much sleep in this house? We are up all the time to just monitor him.  With twins its hard when the one needs yout attention more, because he just wanted to sit on my lap all the time and I wanted to hold him, but Nika dont always understand and that breaks my heart. Luckly its weekend so mom and dad are both at home 24/7 ( afterall this is my best time ever) Luv is a real sweetheart with his kids and when they've got fevers he is like  a hen watching over his chicks.I really wish that damm teeth wants to show now! Please.

They are now super cute ( I now every single stage are super cool) they love playing hide and seek in the curtains, and crawling after each other. Nika is climbing on the coffee table every opportunity she get. They are so full of bumps now, because they are careless. And if we forgot to close the gate to the stairs, they up there its the best game ever. Wium is quickly up, but Nika loves attentions and wants like a standing ovation for everything she do. She is more the drama queen. Loves to talk all the time....her own language.

In two week they turn one.... this is kreepers. One year!!! Like luv said last night, I still don’t believe we’ve got kids!!!! And I am off to start planning their celebration!!!

 I just love watching the Olympics’ that took place in London. I think it would have been so nice to watch some of the games myself 

Have to say we are going to miss it now, was so nice relaxing at night watching it.

Funny how while you watch it you wish you could have been so sporty and energetic!  But with in a sec you think, sporty, while you lying on the couch??

If you only can think how much effort and time and all the ect was going in, to just got yourself to that level. It’s super amazing!!! It’s not just a I want to do it, its years of planning and exercising.

 

 

And then I look at the Paralympics. People with disabilities!!! They took the medals of my heart !! people doing swimming without limbs? People running And all the other sport. Can you only think what kind of spirit those “brave hearts” must have. They are super.

Then I think how those people did not go and sit in a corner and ask ”why me”??  No, they grab the world and wanted to make the best of it! They want to show the world if you are a bit different like others, you still can make the most of it.

Then I start thinking how MANY people I now are always complaining and moaning and have no spirit for life anymore....and the best is there is nothing wrong with them!!! They are just depress and don’t like the world!!! Freaking hell and then you get these Paralympics chaps, you think don’t you need to learn a lesson from them?????

Thats one of the things that have had a great influence on my life!! Years ago I rip all my knee ligaments in hockey. I was sitting in the car waiting for my mom thinking how bad it is, I cannot walk , it will take months, its sore and its plain just bad.....  then I saw this poor man, without a leg on crutches. He was “walking with his crutches and ONE leg from his home and that was far! He don’t have money for any help and that day change allot  of how I am thinking. That day a saw that if you ever think YOUR life and problems are BAD!!! I can put my head on a block..... There is someone out there, who’s life is much more worse than you can ever think of! So if I am ever thinking geeeee man this is bad, the next moment I think, yes , but you are not the worse so get your ass up and go!!! That was what have keep me going and  I have decided I wanted to make most of every single second of my life!! And I am doing it!!!

Thanx for people who we can look at, and value life !

BABIES MAKES LOVES STRONGER
NIGHTS SHORTER
DAYS LONGER
BANK ACCOUNTS SMALLER
CLOTHES CHABBIER

BUT YOUR HOUSE
HAPPIER
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Sometimes things happen that will always get stuck into your head. Things you will always wonder about. When the twins were in ICU other babies have come and go.

 

I still remember the morning opening the door of the ICU into this chaos of  doctors, sisters, immediately seeing big trouble ! and Nika’s bed was empty and everyone was hanging over this baby ( I could only see the feet) I was in shock thinking its Nika!!

But during the night they have put Nika and Wium together in one little bed, that’s why her bed was empty.

It was the day I was geared to took loads of photos of the twins, after all, we have had days and days of time. But that day I was sitting like a quiet mouse just looking at this picture that was displaying in front of me.

This baby was born on 40 weeks, nothing wrong, but during labour something went bad. They have struggle for 20 minutes to get the heart rate of the baby going ( don’t know all the detail)

I have only had a glimpse of this baby boy and I was listening to all that was happening around me. Thinking how lucky we have been, twins born 2 months too early and now they fine, and here is a 40 week baby and he is suffering.

The dad was in and out wanting updates, and later the morning  he was wheeling the mother who wanted to see her son. I was thinking how this was supposed to be their happiest moment in life, meeting their first born. And now its chaos. She was so lost and I still remember talking to her and she was so shock. Telling me her side of the birth experience and she was so scared and she did not understand the machine  her baby was on. I remember this first few days in hospital, all you wanted to know if the heart rates, oxygen levels ect is fine. You ask million if time ...is that fine. After a few days you know all the ranges.  But this lady was terrified of all the beeping of the machines.

They decided to move the baby to another hospital with more advanced ICU because there was defiantly a big problem. I was listening how they needed approval from their medical aid for the move and how they waited for a ambulance.

I remember how upset the father was, because the ambulance took so long and I now what’s going through your mind, because very second count!! I remember how I want to help the father to fight to speed everything up, how I want to ask can we not just get the baby in my car and drive...just to get there, please.

I remember how they wait next to their baby for the ambulance, the anxious father and the scattered mother ( shame she was suppose to lay in bed, drooling over her newborn, but instead she was running in her PJ with a gown  waiting to get transfer to another hospital)

I am thinking ssssoooo many times.......how the baby boy and his parents are doing??

I think for the rest of my life I will be wondering about them......

Its September and its SPRING !! But O no !!! where is spring hiding? I cannot wait for it to start. But its so cold!!!!!

When I was in school the 1 of September was a BIG day at school. All the little kiddies was sending home to make small little bunches of flowers from their garden and them on the 1^st. The teacher with all these kids hit the town and give out all these flowers, especially to older people...and I still remember the happy look on their faces!

 

Funny how I remember it now for the first time in years!!! Maybe after all these years I am also start to get out of my “winter-stage” things are start to bloom inside is me again, jippee!!

 

And I just adore flowers!! My whole family just loveeeeessss flowers.