37 weeks and still kicking.

My baby-sitter in action...

I cannot believe we have been home for over a week now, just being inside our home the whole time and ENJOYING these 2 miracles. I think it will take a while to realize it’s ours forever!! After all these years with Zero Guarantees, it’s FINAL!!! that we are parents and that’s a GUARANTEE!! At freaking last!

With every feeding me and Luv change and feed the other one, and very second time you get the same one, you cannot believe the change, they getting bigger as we speak! And a little secret, I LOVE small babies, I just adore them. My premmies are not prem anymore....the weigh 2,8kg. Must be all the love they get  that’s making them grow so much.

They are acting more and more like babies. If we wake them for their feeding and they realize its MILKY-TIME they go mad... and they attract their bottles like a shark its bait. I am scared of my fingers. And we will defiantly need too  buy to  more burp-clothes because if that’s in the way they start to nipple on that as well.

Most of the time they sleep, but the hyperactive Nika ( suro-sus spot that in the womb already)  wants more attention and like to listen to us open-eyed.

They are only 37 weeks today and they hate having poo in the diapers. If they start to wiggle we just know.....change the diaper or Nika’s hat is over her eyes.

I can just look at LUV, its not a surprise for me , but he is just enjoying his kids soooo much. If you can see him now you will think soon he will open a baby-crèche.

I don’t have somebody helping me at home and between everything I still got time for washing, ironing and believe it....after a year there was time for me to get my ass on the treadmill, and it felt great!

Yesterday somebody was telling me they are going to try another IVF, because I have given them hope. And it feels great to be, some hope for women out there.

If you are still on the IF journey, my heart goes out to you. I hope with all in me that you will read my story and can take a bit of it, if its a small piece of hope to get glued too. Its a not easy road to be one...HUGS xxxxxx

Waiting for their bottle ( me having a BAD hair day)

On their way to have a bath

One Month!!!

The twins are ONE month!!! and it feel like one day!!!

Snuza

To see my babies make every tear and needle worth it!!

They are soooo sweet and loved! And we are so relax....more than I would ever think!!

You remember a few months ago, the story about paranoid me!! So I bought the sound and movement monitor, all the times I watch over Suro-sus kids I was PARANOID, for them to stop breathing!! Its a HUGE thing for me. So if I have to watch I will sit up the whole night, with my hand on their chests or with a finger under their nose, or lights flashing on them to see if they still breathe. At the end of the night they have had a wonderful night and me.....totally exhausted and so glad to see that the sun is shining.

In the hospital I was fine!! Because they were double check all the time with heart rate and breathing monitors. Funny on Friday when the sister was busy to disconnect the beepers ( I did not see it) the next moment I was aware of not hearing the beeping. I turn around and ask did they stop to breathe??? NO, they your babies now and will be fine.

SO when they arrive home we put on their SNUZAS ( its a movement monitor) and wonder if this gadget work?? And yes it work!!! Its the best gadget ever!! You just clip onto their diapers and the moment nothing move after 10 sec it buzz to wake the baby, if not after another 10 sec the alarm will go off!  Mommy go and get yourself one!! Snuza have kill my paranoia .

The first night at about 4 o’clock it went off, baby still fine just the Snuza that have move abit after babies wiggling. From then on we know it work so when we hit the pillow....we....sleep....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

1st night home!

SO what happen the first day home...

We did not know what to expect..how will it be with twins, and YES everyone is telling how drama and suffering is about to knock on your door. Me and Luv was so ready for that.

The  sisters at hospital were amazing, and was telling as to just keep to the routine. As you know ROUTINE is the one thing me and Luv don’t have in our life at all. We life the moment...

We get home at six o’clock and start to feed immediately. After that we unpack everything. To unpack my suitcase after months was the best ever!!! And to just be at home...

This is what happens the next few hours.

Feeding times is 6-9-12-3-6-9. Every 3 hours.

15 minutes before the hour, I walk and put the kettle on to warm the bottles and I make the bottles. In that 15 minutes Luv, wake the twins, change their diapers ( he is doing so good , don’t look like a new-dad, he look like an baby-expert)

I get the bottles, and the burp clothes, each of us take the twins and start to feed. This take about 15 ( Wium is a quickie) to 25 minutes( Nika is the snail) to finish their bottles and to get them burp. I am actually scared to brag about it, because babies can disappoint their parents the moment you brag with them. So as you can see half an hour after we start on the hour. WE ARE FINISHED!!!! We did not think this will happen. Then they go to sleep again and sleep till the next feeding. SO the first night we got SEVEN HOURS SLEEP.

And this is what happen the next 3 nights also. I think the twins are just as glad we all home now!!

Wium and Nika have ring-side-seats for the World cup final!! and dad is enjoying every single second of it.

HOME after 24 days!!!

Sorry for the bad updates but I was in hospital most of my 24 days and not at a PC, but from now on you all will get more updates, because after a whole year of never being at home  most of the time....I CAN FINALLY SAY...I AM BACK!!!! THE FAMILY ARE COMPLETED

The hospital would not discharge me if the twins could not finish all of their bottles of the day and pick up weight, and then they went on a strike and don’t drink ( they are so tiny and get tired easily)  so they get the rest of their milk through their nose tubes...and if they finish that I need to room-in with them to see if I can cope!!! ( COPE is the last thing on my mind...I will cope because I want my babies!!!

So it looks like Saturday will be the due date to leave. So Friday morning Luv took the bus down here ( so he can drive us all back home) I was driving to the hospital and was so fed-up for the hospital, the artificial air in the room and I was missing home...big time!!!

Opposite the hospital there are a very nice grocer , I bought a sandwich and sit there and think this is getting to much now!! I finish eating and went to the twin’s room. There the doctor  was and she said...they fine you can go home!!! WHAT!!!!! And the rooming in??? If you want to, otherwise go home!! I START CRYING!! AND IT NEVER STOPS THE WHOLE DAY!!

It was the best news ever!!! And for the first time everything felt real!!, because in hospital it feel like  the twins belong to ICU. And NOW after all they mine, I can take them home!!!

So then I call Luv on the bus tell him you must get your ass down here, he will just arrived and them we need to go. I went to fetch their car-chairs ( very weird feeling to went back in hospital with that). I dress the twins in their own clothes. Put them in their own blankets. Pack all their belongings and cry. I cry because this is final!!! I cry because I need to say good bye to new friends!! Which I will miss so much. I cry because of this miracle-journey that has end...I cry because I am so happy!! To be a family!! I cry because I miss Luv so much the past year!! I JUST CRY!!!! And look terrible!!

Suro-sus also bring her kids to say goodbye!! It was the first time they saw them. They think Nika and Wium are just sooo tiny!!

The bus drop Luv in front of the hospital, It feel like from then on we just grap our precious cargo and GO!!!

It was a very happy and very sad day!! All the sisters come and say goodbye!! They where angels to my babies! They love my babies so much!!!

Luv took the two very special babies! And start walking and very one was just saying goodbye as we past, for the sisters, the receptions the kiosk-girlies, the kitchen staff, all were saying goodbye ...and I cried!!!The one was saying ...NOW our days will not be the same anymore!!, this was so touching!!!. For 24 days!!!!! I was getting so much love from the hospital people and all of my friends nearby!! Thanx you all!! I will miss you all.

We get the babies and drove to my parenst home, make a pit stop to feed ( and to show my grandmother of 90 the twins) and get in the car and went straight home just in time for the next feed!

Will tell you more of the first night at home.

...SO AFTER 10 AND A HALF YEARS...THERE are BABIES IN OUR HOUSE!! This is very special!!

The twins ready are waiting for Luv to come and fetch them

The hospital-angels say good bye!!

I am the cry-baby!!

A very proud father!!!

We are leaving the hospital!!! finaly!!

bottles...

The twins do not finish their bottles with every feed ,so now we can not go home so till then we have to stay!!

I will tell you more when I am home again... maybe soon!!

20 day in ICU

Today its 20 days in here!!  What a place to be!! and I cannot believe how the time fly and all the time I have spend in here. The 2 are doing great!! and it sound as if we can start to pack our bags... to leave soon.

We are 35 weeks today and we can leave at 36 weeks. and the prems are ahead of  where they need to be.

I would love to go finally!! I feel like a snail with my house on my back( my car) to unpack everything will be the best!!! and Luv are going to stay at home for the first 2 weeks! Wowwwwww