Finally, at last, after a long time, it had hit me, HARD!!!
My twins have, too quickly, past their baby-stage. I know I was looking and looking till my eye were dry but I don’t see babies in my house anymore, it’s gone.....gone forever!!! And it will never be back never again...sob....sob...sob!!!
I was clinging onto, so much maybe’s!!
Maybe it will not go so fast!!
Maybe they will stay baby a little longer!
Maybe I will have a baby even without any tubes again!!
But reality hit me with n bang!!!
I have kids who have start talking, eating by themselves, run, walk, climb and through tantrums ( without any noise), kids with personality and a will of their own.
So last week I know it was time to say goodbye! I was putting it aside for so long, but there are no more space left in my house for everything, I wanted to keep for my kids for when they got their own kids. Ridiculous, I know. We will need to buy another house and Luv was putting his foot down, get rid of all this baby stuff we don’t have space.
So very brave I was getting ALL BABY STUFF in my house, ready for action-going-away-tata-take the road!!
Ive got friends I want to give stuff so I start sorting boy/girl stuff. First clothes I have in my hands..... no, not this, this I want to keep, putting it aside, next thing, the same. I cannot do this and start crying!!! My soul out. It was so emotional... but I know I need to do this and start all over again. So I was throwing every single thing out, clothes, cots-bedding, sleeping bags, jumbo chairs, eating chairs, all the toys!! So my house is all sort out now. Baby-time....gone for ever...
But one thing I could not get rid off.....their prem-clothes!!! That will stay in my house till I die!!!
ta ta babygrows!!!
soft toys, disinfected and busy drying....for someone else's babies!!