April is the
months with loads of looooooong weekends, and we have arrive home after another
long one . From Friday till Tuesday we have been away...and allot have happen
again in my life...there is always allot happening.
The beginning
of April I have been for my yearly Gyni-check-up, I have tell you about the whole
story...bla the contraceptive.... the nice egg on my tubeless-side....well...
I know my reproductive-body so good,
and last week I just feel O-so-preggies!!
While sitting at my PC I skype Luv “
Hey I think I am pregnant AGAIN!! Congrats you are going to be a daddy!!” he
replying hahahah again!!.
When he hit home that afternoon I
tell him ..I am pregnant, I just know it!! Tomorrow I will do I home test.
More on me and home tests.... after
all these years I am not a Pee-on-a-stick-addict! I just did it on the
suro-ivf-journey and I have an spare one for maybe.
The nine times I have been pregnant
was tested by blood test. So on paper I have been pregnant 9 times. I real life
I am scared to know the number,,,its many times. But now after we have had the twins I have
tell Luv if ever I
got this I think I am pregnant, I will do a home test, just to see. Because alllllllllllll
the kizillions of other times, I just will have wait till my “late-periods”
arrive.
So Thursday
night just before I took a shower, I thought.....I am 100000000% sure I am
Pregnant, I am not going to wait till tomorrow, and did the peeing-stick
thing......with and immediately double stripes!! I went to Luv and show him and
we start laughing!!! Because it was the tubeless-side, my changes where zero (
my FS ones told me he have seen it happen ones, how nobody know) but the egg
slip in the back door. 5 weeks pegnant.
We could not
sleep that night ...because of excitement !!!!!!!
Just to
start bleeding on Sunday.....a MISCARRIAGE AGAIN!!
So my
reproductive -insides.. is still on strike!!! But for the first time it was not THAT BAD,
because I have 2 wonderful little babies. It took the edge off!
Oh goodness, you so accurately captured the roller coaster of infertility. I am so sorry for the story's ending, but glad you can find comfort in your precious little guys. xo
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear your news... so much excitement then disappointment in a few day :( Thinking of you xoxo
ReplyDeleteHi, ek is steeds baie jammer dit het nie gehou nie. xxx
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