One more night

…and now its 1 more sleep !!!

When I start this journey 10 years ago, it was with much eager and spirit. I was so right for it. But then the journey just have no end and it was full of tears, sorrow and so much heartache. It was plain say “terrible”!! a never ending story with the same ending every time….sorry, we don’t know why.

After all these years I have been FULL OF SCARS with so much pain. About 3 years ago I thought I will never have kids ever, but I still try. I am a believer, a big one!!! And I believe in miracles.

I was always looking at other people’s babies and kids and just WISH!!! I never went to stork parties it was so painful and did not go to hospital to a  new born – painful too! I was thinking that IF ever I will be so lucky to have babies nobody will give me support because I did not give any, I just could not do it.  But is was fine, and then this journey start and though out the years my family and friends have been there always but NOW!!!

This whole thing is bursting out of his boundaries!!! The support are so huge!! Daily we get so many messages, calls, text’s, hugs, letters, PRAYERS and gifts. And from people I have never ever met in person. It is so much valued. People are out of their minds full of excitement for us. Wowwwww. Still have to pinch myself.

WE CAN JUST THANK EACH AND EVERY ONE, YOU ARE SPECIAL!!!

This whole few months I was bless with a calmness, thanx for that. Maybe because I saw that litlle heartbeats on 7 weeks I just now. This is going to be it!! This will be the end!!! And now we have reached the end. How did we get here??? Can this be??

It still feeling like a dream, and yes the infertile me is still scared to be rip out of her dream…the moment I am going to saw that little babies of mine. I will know its real! And

MARICLES DO HAPPEN!!

AND JUST LIKE KIDS I AM MARKING IT OFF ON MY CALENDER

…ONE MORE SLEEP!!!