Milk???

This may sound ridiculous but I would really love to breastfeed.  Why this I cannot tell you, I just want to do it!! The easy way out is defiantly I am not pregnant....I don’t have milk...my babies is going to do the bottle-thing and twins is double the milky-trouble.

Its not a issue if, it do not work out, but I want to take a change, and try.( I love taking risks, that’s why I am here today)  I have nothing to lose after all. I was trying for months now to ask around what to do and how. Going around and around and at the end I think nobody know when and where.  

So now, yestererday I have started with my trying-to-get-milk-out-of-this-dried-out-cow. I need to drink pills ( its like  The “happy-pill” you  drink for depression) and this is weird for me, it freak me out a bit. Because after 10 years of IF this is the EVERY FIRST  “Happy pills” I pop, and for milk and not for depression.

So I am drinking pills and do stimulation with a breatpump daily...and the BIG thing... when will I have milk???? How long will this take to kick-in??? Will it ever happen???? We will have to wait and see... will let you now.

I have start with this now , because my hormones need some milky-wake-up-call and what if I miss this bus and milk only arrive when the twins already start eating with their own knife and fork??