Twin are here!!

I am proud to anounce that Wium ( 1,9kg) and Nika ( 2kg) was born todat at 2 o'clock.

Both in NICU on oxygen. Boy suffering abit , but are fine now

They are beautiful!! we are so blessed!!!!

Will post later very tired!!

One more night

…and now its 1 more sleep !!!

When I start this journey 10 years ago, it was with much eager and spirit. I was so right for it. But then the journey just have no end and it was full of tears, sorrow and so much heartache. It was plain say “terrible”!! a never ending story with the same ending every time….sorry, we don’t know why.

After all these years I have been FULL OF SCARS with so much pain. About 3 years ago I thought I will never have kids ever, but I still try. I am a believer, a big one!!! And I believe in miracles.

I was always looking at other people’s babies and kids and just WISH!!! I never went to stork parties it was so painful and did not go to hospital to a  new born – painful too! I was thinking that IF ever I will be so lucky to have babies nobody will give me support because I did not give any, I just could not do it.  But is was fine, and then this journey start and though out the years my family and friends have been there always but NOW!!!

This whole thing is bursting out of his boundaries!!! The support are so huge!! Daily we get so many messages, calls, text’s, hugs, letters, PRAYERS and gifts. And from people I have never ever met in person. It is so much valued. People are out of their minds full of excitement for us. Wowwwww. Still have to pinch myself.

WE CAN JUST THANK EACH AND EVERY ONE, YOU ARE SPECIAL!!!

This whole few months I was bless with a calmness, thanx for that. Maybe because I saw that litlle heartbeats on 7 weeks I just now. This is going to be it!! This will be the end!!! And now we have reached the end. How did we get here??? Can this be??

It still feeling like a dream, and yes the infertile me is still scared to be rip out of her dream…the moment I am going to saw that little babies of mine. I will know its real! And

MARICLES DO HAPPEN!!

AND JUST LIKE KIDS I AM MARKING IT OFF ON MY CALENDER

…ONE MORE SLEEP!!!

They are DUE!!!!!

32 WEEKS!!!!!! And Guess what!!!!!!!

Wednesday half pass one; we are going to meet the most precious, beautiful, special, cute, miracles twin babies!!!!!!!!!!! In the world!!

We are going to be PARENTS!!! Can you believe it!!!!!

We visit the doc today and Suro-sus cervix is hanging on threads!! It’s open!! I could see that on the scan and if there is one thing we don’t want, it’s labouring at home. Not again. When the doc made the call of the due date , I start crying!!! After all these years its happening.

Luv got time to get his ass down here (He is super ecstatic!!) and I need to get the cameras charged and we need  to do the last minute waxing and sorting of the suro-sus kids for Wednesday!!

All I can say is WoWWWWWW WoWWWWWW!!!!!

Dont know how I got this not the right way up.. but turn your head side-ways!!! me at 32 weeks!!!!

...and sus at 32 weeks with 4,5 kg she have pick up!!

Look like the nerves have knock my brain, so turn your heads to he left!!

My last minutes at home..

The is the baby-things Luv need to grap when he get the call, it have move from here to the boot of the car.

Last night, just relaxing for the last time on my couch....Home alone.....

I am off to my twinnies and there tummy-aunty, I have miss them sooo much the last few days!!

the room is waiting...

The twins room are now just waiting to meet them!!!!

Home sweet home

After 3-4 weeks not being at home....and my mother asking me if I don’t want to quickly go home. I pack my car, and make a great escape, jumping in my car and put my foot on the gas....

It is soooooo wonderful and nice at home for a change. When I got home home last night Luv order a pizzas ( he is such a sweetie!!) and we sat and chat and , I was out of my skin just to have my own things around me. Jippeeee just love my own stuff.

Luv has packed all the stuff that we bought for the twins in one room. Its diapers, car stools, baby stuff ect.  It is standing throughout the whole house. This morning I was up and jumping in to do washing....ironing....cleaning...packing things in the baby room. This break is so great for me just to get everything in order again. Luv did wash all the baby clothes , I am so glad for that. Every time I handle the tiny things I want to burst with excitement, because I know the twins are on their way.

My cell phone is glue to my ear in case of TWIN- emergency!!! But I really hope my twins will behave and give me this last break.....after this they can keep me busy for years!!!And  as you know when you have you cell phone with you ( I don’t have mine always with me so half the day I and running because  where ?? have put it down ) now it is ringing the whole day with people who want to sell something or insurance-stupid-people-who-wants-to sell-it. The cell is killing me!! For now my cell is a twin-baby-call-phone!!

My wonderful( yes sus let mom read this!!) is standing in for me, and is at Suro-sus right now. Dont let the kids kill her she is doing a BIG  favour for me!! Thanx MOM!!!! I know you are the one who’s nerves are cracking with this “THINGS” your daughter are doing right now.....RELAX!!!!!!

Got a surprise this morning opening up the door, my garden is full of wonderful blooming flowers!!!

Hit the road, mom...

Visits too the doctor is getting most boring now, because nothing happen. Actually its GOOD NEWS!!!!!!!! The babies are sitting like glue – I think it’s because of all the prayers from all over!! These babies are just mending to be miracles and that’s why everything is working out the way it is. While we busy scanning the one baby on the left, the busy one, did not like it at all…the one was kicking like hell!

So the coast is clear and babies are doing fine!! I am so relax about everything. This is not up to us and I know we are in good hands, that was with us all along this journey. We are so bless!!

I have been at my sus for weeks now and miss my house so much, that’s why I have decided …. I am going to hit the road today, just for a very very quick visit to my house a few hours away…. Hope this is a good call. You know how things work : Suro-sus bags are pack, I am pack weesk ago, Luv’s bags are pack weeks ago- WE ARE ORGANIZED!!!! AND NOTHING HAPPEN.

Really hope the twins will give me this quick break  not doing funny things. Please give mommy a break!!

Hit the road, mom...

Visits too the doctor is getting most boring now, because nothing happen. Actually its GOOD NEWS!!!!!!!! The babies are sitting like glue – I think it’s because of all the prayers from all over!! These babies are just mending to be miracles and that’s why everything is working out the way it is. While we busy scanning the one baby on the left, the busy one, did not like it at all…the one was kicking like hell!

So the coast is clear and babies are doing fine!! I am so relax about everything. This is not up to us and I know we are in good hands, that was with us all along this journey. We are so bless!!

I have been at my sus for weeks now and miss my house so much, that’s why I have decided …. I am going to hit the road today, just for a very very quick visit to my house a few hours away…. Hope this is a good call. You know how things work : Suro-sus bags are pack, I am pack weesk ago, Luv’s bags are pack weeks ago- WE ARE ORGANIZED!!!! AND NOTHING HAPPEN.

Really hope the twins will give me this quick break  not doing funny things. Please give mommy a break!!

31 weeks

Today we are 31 weeks. This is a big milestone!! 31 31 31 31 31 weeks. In the beginning we just hope to get as near as possible to the 30’s and now we are 31 weeks. I don’t think you know how wonderful each day is we pass.

Tomorrow we have another doc’s appointment to measure the cervix and check the little one’s.

I am still do the pumping thing and the milk is getting more each pump (although Suro-sus think it is sooo funny, because you need glasses to spot the milk in the bottle. The last 2 day was much more!.

It is still amazing just to have milk!! I am not pregnant and I can breastfeed!! Wowwwww Wowwwww!!

All we do right now is wait and try to get past each day, and keeping them in for more days. I have not been at my home for weeks now and I MISS MY HOME SO MUCH!!!!!!!! Gosh!!!! I miss my husband and my house and my things around me!!! I have so many stuff I still need to do there!! Hope the fairies will jump in and help.

They sitting like glue

Just got back for the doc. The twins are doing fine!!! and are so happy inside their 5-star-hotel on legs!! more must I say 3-star the space is not that much anymore!!

The cervix are still close not that much any more but CLOSE!! We will scan on Tuesday again and see what will happen. But for now....the coast is clear.....

Suro-sus kids are getting more and more irritate now. Shame their mother can not pick them up  anymore. They must be fed-up with always someone under their feet 24/7. I think they just need their parents to be alone with them for while giving them quality-time. And at weekends Suro-sus husband are home to help. That's why me and Luv ( he is coming down this weekend) are going to hit the road and give them a break this weeked!! after all we are just a phone call away if the twins are making trouble.

Too you...xxx

A letter for my Miracle twins…

A few months I wrote a letter too you, and ask you to please stick in you Aunty ‘s tummy, because we want you so much!! And you read it, I am so pleased!!!! Because you got stuck!! Jippeeee!!!

So I want to tell you how we can not wait for your arrival soon. Everything is in there place you two. Your room is finish; I am thinking you 2 will love it!! There is no theme and it’s not a baby room, more a toddler room with loads of colour, just like me your mommy’s personality!!

Your dad just finish the electricity last night, so we can put your monitor in. We don’t want sit down stairs and not hear when you two call us.

I can not wait to give you a bath, change you diaper and put you to bed!! Snuggle you little tiny bodies.I will love you smell, I cannot wait to stare at you for hours!! and I can tell you this BE WARE!!! I will not put you down!! People can say I spoil you, I dont care!! I have waited toooooo long!!!!!! I have 10 years of LOVE I want to give you.

Loads of people are sitting on the edge of their chairs waiting for you 2. You are so privileged, because many many people are praying for you. I think that’s why you 2 are sitting like nuts inside your Tummy Aunty.

I am so excited, over-rated-out-of-my-skin-super-dooper-can-not-wait-bounching-of-the-walls-have-no-words-bursting-out-of-pleasure-tears-happy!!!

Every time I am looking at your Auntie’s tummy I wonder my ass-off to know what’s inside!!! How you will be looking like me or you dad. Hope you got all the best feature of us.

Every single second, minute, hour and day is a bonus. I am so proud of you 2!! You defiantly surprise us big time, with your stay in Aunty-suro. All can say is hanging in their sweethearts!!! The wait will be worth it!

The moment the doctor will lift you out (he will be the first one you will see first) You will meet us all then. You won’t miss me your mommy, I will be crying as if it’s the end of the world. Your dad will be the long one standing with tears in your eyes. He will not be crying loud like me, but the tears will be there, that I can promise you. Your wonderful Suro-Aunty will be the one lying on the bed and the rest will be undercover with masks, and no its not a “funcy-dress” we will tell you later who they will be.

So wonderful miracle babies mommy is waiting desperately for you 2!!

30 weeks!!

We took this pic today!!

Happy Anniversary Zero Guarantees!!!

Today is my blog's 1st Anniversary on this name ZERO GUARANTEES!! Time is flying so quickly!!! and Geeeee Whizzzzzzz look at all that happened.

Last year this time we where waiting for the Court case to  go through and proceed with this Suro journey. Try number 2 and 3 pass. I got a positive beta twice and Suro-sus is on the final step of the miracle journey!!! The twins birth!!

Last year this time I was so fed-up and now me and Luv are SOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!  I can not tell you what I am feeling!! it will be over rated!!!!

We went to the doc today and the twins are defiantly Miracle's.... everything is still fine!!!!! They have a jol of a time inside my sus. We have start with our first injections for the babies lungs!!!

Babies your mommy can not wait to meet you!!! and to hold you two!!!!

MiLk

DRUM ROLLLLLLL!!!!!!!

I am not dried-up anymore!!!! After 9 days of drinking the pills and pumping my breasts once a day. Thursday after the pumping, my one nipple where bit wet. First I thought its so sore maybe my boob has torn.  But NO!!!! Can you believe….. It’s the first signs of milk!!

I have to say the pump I am using is the best!! It’s the Medela Pump in Style. And it is sucking my boob’s up-side-down.

One of my newly met twin-mommy-to-be friend, phones me with what to do now to collect the milk. I went and bought injections and now after each pumping session I collect the drops.

Luv was so impress!!! And now for he comedy: This weekend Luv can to Suro-sus and visit us ( we are still on dating, me and him) So after the pumping he is now collecting with the injection needle all the drops from the tubes and my nipples!! Suro-sus kids think it is very funny and I think its funny two. We don’t want to loose a singe drop!!

We have collect 3 tubes now!! This journey never stop to amaze me!!!!

Prepping....

What am I suppose to do?????

I think that when you are the pregnant one, you know what to do and what are expected from you and know what will happen when.

But what when you are the mother?? And are not pregnant?

If you are the pregnant one you know:

#        When to go to hospital (some women don’t, if it’s a speedy-water-    break)

#        to pack your bags and what to put in.

#        you will stay a few days in hospital and will get visitors

#        you get yourself ready

#        Go for the last hair cut

#        Get you nail polish remove for theatre

#        You shave you legs  and got you HOO-HAA wax ( after all you are going to be on theatre-spotlight!!

#        You’re cell phone is charge for all the “let-the-world-know-who-just-arrive”

#        You’re camera’s is charged for the “photo-shoot-of-the-year”

BUT WHAT IF YOU ARE ME??

#        Suro-sus will just tell me “ Its time to go” ( and then I will go into a spin and Luv will start to shiver.

#        I will go to hospital, but what must I do?? Where must I sit or stand?? Will I get a room or must I live in my car in the parking load? Will I get visitors and must we better use to coffee shop or scrubbing room?

#        and in theatre where will they put us?? Peeping through a window, waiting next to the coffee-vent, or will we stand next to the red-line??

#        My hair is cut, but now I think will my babies love my hairstyle??

Or must I quickly put in a few funky colours?? I have had blue in my hair the day we put then back in. Maybe they like blue? Or must it be a mix green, pink, blue, yellow ( oops I hate yellow)

#        I love nail colour. , but now will they like the purple that’s on or  must I put pink on my nails and green on my toes???

#        Its winter time so I don’t need a wax,  the nice part this time , is I am not the EXPOSE-ONE (the only nice part) and  for the first time ever my HOO-HAA are not going to get ALL THE ATTENTION ( sometimes you need to step down)

#        My cell phone are charged the last few months!!!

#        and the camera’s…I’ve got arsenal of camera’s line-up. There is not a change in space I am going to miss the MIRACLE OF THIS LIFETIME!!!

So as you all can see, the last preggy-hormones in me is mixed-up like a cocktail……..

Keeping up!!!

Whats going on in Suro-Twin-Aunty-household????

Nothing!!! She is lying down most of time, the 4 years old is in school in the  morning and I and the 2 year old went for last minute shopping!! ( everybody asking if its my kid?? NO!!! mine's on their way...)

I really hope the twins stay in as long as possible!!! the longer they stay in the quicker we can go home. To our home. The home I miss  the whole time!! and I miss their father the most!! JEEEEE I miss LUV!!!! our relationship feel at this moment like a dating-thing. ( have to say I am defiantly date the most gorgeous, lovable man in the whole wide world!!) Miss you luv xxxxxx

I am so excited , but one thing I am scares of is the theatre!!! I am not scared of the doctors, or the whole labour thing...I am scared that the moment things are going to happen.... my throat will clog and log up and then its when the waterfall of tears will come. What if I miss the whole experience , because I could not see!!! I cried to much


... just for the record.... NO MILK YET!!!! This cow is still dry-up!!

29 weeks and things are happening...

Just got back from the doctor and Suro-sus serviks open  up more. The doctor say things can happen in the next 2 weeks maybe, but we are going to take it day by day from now. Monday we will have our next check-up.

Suro-sus are getting more uncomfortable by the minute, but she is keeping up great!! except for her nerves!!.

I am getting more and more excited. Jumping from the walls. Things are happening so quickly now. This journeys is sooooo near the end. I have not read anything, found out anythings, did not diet, I just eat!!( nerves??) and I just don't have a care in the world. Just want my babies!!!!!

Its killing me more and more to see what the gender will be. I am so glad we have left this surprise to the end!!!!!!!!

When I past the hospital this morning the flags of the babies that was born was hanging, and all I can think of is ....what flags are we going to hang!!!!

Packing

We are 29 weeks and I don't know how we got here. We are soooo near!!! and if there is one thing we don't want to miss its, the birth of our miracle-twinnies!!!! so its Sunday night and tomorrow I will go to Suro-sus for the week and maybe till the end. So you can just imagine how the car look!!

...because I pack everything, from what would I like to wear, things to keep me busy, last minute-projects. i am not good at making up my mind so then....I pack everything I see and what I think I will need. 

The weekend we by so quickly, and its nice for me to do nice things with Luv, soon we will not be alone( thanks for that) so we enjoy this last-minute-just-us-sleeping-late-eating-out-doing-us-things!!!

All the babies bags are pack, so if I am in Cape Town and Luv got the call, he just need to grap all the stuff on the bed ( car seats, hopitalbag, leaving hospital things) I am so organize its unbelievable. Its not me. But its the excited me that took over!

Tuesday is our next scan I can not wait!!!!

Milk???

This may sound ridiculous but I would really love to breastfeed.  Why this I cannot tell you, I just want to do it!! The easy way out is defiantly I am not pregnant....I don’t have milk...my babies is going to do the bottle-thing and twins is double the milky-trouble.

Its not a issue if, it do not work out, but I want to take a change, and try.( I love taking risks, that’s why I am here today)  I have nothing to lose after all. I was trying for months now to ask around what to do and how. Going around and around and at the end I think nobody know when and where.  

So now, yestererday I have started with my trying-to-get-milk-out-of-this-dried-out-cow. I need to drink pills ( its like  The “happy-pill” you  drink for depression) and this is weird for me, it freak me out a bit. Because after 10 years of IF this is the EVERY FIRST  “Happy pills” I pop, and for milk and not for depression.

So I am drinking pills and do stimulation with a breatpump daily...and the BIG thing... when will I have milk???? How long will this take to kick-in??? Will it ever happen???? We will have to wait and see... will let you now.

I have start with this now , because my hormones need some milky-wake-up-call and what if I miss this bus and milk only arrive when the twins already start eating with their own knife and fork??