HI!! there all friends.

It’s the end of February, two months gone of 2020.

I am sitting the last two years on this…. Am I finish with “Zero Guarantees” my blog!! Which I love but it’s like I don’t really know….. It start out as a infertility blog where I could pin down my feeling… which was my saving grace. Cause I release my feeling on you all…..

 then I was a mom of twins which drain me totally and the last thing I was thinking off was my  the blog and If I was thinking of it I was so damm drain to write…..

 and loads of stuff have happen to me…. And NOW I am ready for new things in my life!

But who is still reading my blog, I can see loads are still visiting it…. Is it infertile people???? Is it moms ??? is it blog readers?? Who???

I am thinking of doing writing or videos of the way I see stuff. And this is like any stuff from diets, moms ‘issues, relationship tangles, kids’ moments name it…so do I need to stop this blog and start something new...

I am literally always thinking of some stuff driving mostly anyone around me freaking nuts.

So, drop me an email at zeroguarantees@gmail.com  and let me know should I stay or should I go!!!

Then I can make my decision...

 or do I need to see NEW things through my...

Every year I start with new ideas, stories and amazing things I want to share on my blog… that really, I just need to stop cause I am just so not here anymore.

But to stop something that was my saving rope once in my life is hard to just turn you back on it.

This year was a not so easy one , and bullies are not always just kids, it can be adults too. This was n year I was just trying to not get my kids swap under by them.

We made it and can only hope next year will be a better one. Its now holiday and we are just having a blast with loads of friends and sun and sea water.

Hope you all have a wonderful time left of 2019 and that 2020 will rock you!!

Holiday vibes

Our family went on holiday for the school holiday, it was a super bliss!! Just having the kids 24/7 at my side. Doing stuff together and have loads of laughs.

The first day was a super- loooooooong drive… getting up and in the car at 2h00 the morning and only getting to our destination at 19h30. With kids asking all the time…How far??? Must say my ass was lame after sitting all day. But as we always saying to the kids if you want to get some places you need to sit ..utter boring.

                      

 We went camping in the KRUGER  NATIONAL PARK, it’s on the top of many tourist, visiting South Africa. My husband just love wild life and the kids too.

We stayed in Letaba ( one of the camps) for a week. It was not our first visit to the KRUGER, but it was nice this time to stay in one place all the time, otherwise all you do is putting campsite up and down the whole day.

We saw loads of animals!! Lions in all the ways, Leopards, Cheetahs, Elephants, Zebras, Giraffes, mostly all the animals. Because you only allow to drive at 50 km per hour it’s nice to get out of the rat race of daily life just cruising and looking at nature at its BEST.

At night the kids were looking for scorpions with the “scorpion blue light” pretty cool as the get like florescent when the light shine on them. They are sitting in the trees, not as I was thinking running on the ground at night. Pretty scary!

What was very cool was the Kids Club that the Kruger have in the holiday.

There was Kids game drives where the kids and a guide went looking for animals while playing animal bingo, super cool!! just for R 40 . Best value for money.

At night they went on Night walks with Pepsi the guide searching for night life and learning about it.

They made so many nice friends and as the kids have fun we had a nice time too.  

And the best part we all love is being outside in the warm weather!

Funny how quickly you get suck up into different worlds-time slots-stages of where you are in your life.

When I was still a kid, older-ancient people was telling “time fly” and for kids it don’t feel like that….. cause it take ages to get from one bday to the next bday!!

School holidays just feels as if it will never come…

…and then you are that older-ancient-person…and you realize TIME FLIES!!!

You just don’t have any time for yourself, to get yourself smuck-up, presentable to hit the day, you constantly watching the clock to not be late, for school, work, after hours meet ups. Cleaning the house, giving the pets food, giving you kids food who are more or less hungry ALWAYS!! Getting homework done, getting everybody through the bath in their beds . Just to get the house at night all clean up, get showered and fell down on the coach…. With an extremely tired body and mind with no extra fuel left for ANYTHING…accept a few hours sleep to start  the next day race.

That is the reason why there is no blogs posts for 2019 !!! what a shock…. But reality!! And do you know how much I miss blogging…..just to write it down,  get it  out!! All this crap, that sometimes infected this pudding brain.

This blog start up as a infertile-struggling-story with not much hope for years….few journeys to reach my dreams…and then I become a mommy!

From time to time now I want to blog again about things we do as a family, struggles we neat to overcome, funny things that happen in your lives. And dealing what’s going on in this brain of mine, things I am dealing with, worry about, and things I need to get of this old back of mine.

You can join me if you want…

and so 2018  have only a few days left!! it have gone by in a zip!

we had loads of fun this years!

we started a new chapter of school this year....

we did something new..

it was school concert....

we play sport...

and we chill......

it was a year with so much happening en we where so blessed in so many  ways!!

now its time to rest before we take 2019 by its horns!!

TIME….. was one of the things this year I realise was “a thing” that have a influence of everything.

 This year time was flying by with a hell of a speed! Its feels like yesterday when I drop the twins for their first day of school and with a blink of my eye, they finish their first grade !! with so much things that have happen in their life’s. 

It was the first year in years that I have sort a lot of stuff in my life out. I could organise more, and I could get things done that have been on my life for years and years now.

Because time was whooping pass and I daily new that every step of my kids life I don’t want to miss out on a single thing. I was so busy enjoying every single second of my kids.

 If I only remember how long 10 years of infertility feel…it was forever ! and now 7 years with kids feels like a few months. I know that every phase pass and I want to make most of it all! It sad that they grow fast and before I knew it they will be longer than me.

Every morning for school I took them in their sleep and carry them down stairs to get wake for school and the last day of the this years school with lot of effort I realise that this will probably be the last, cause they getting to heavy for me now. Sob sob !!!

It was only this week that I realise that I don’t get time to blog anymore, and I there was a time when this blog was so part of my life. But there was just not time and loads of other factors that play apart. 

But I hope next year I will have more time to pop some stories or things on my blog.

Never give up on your dreams !!

Gee whizzzzz, it's been a long time since I have post a thing.

I have been sick for nearly 3 months, feeling the worst ever !! I was feeling horrific most of the time. With all the cough-sneeze-snotties-having-zero-energy and still need to do all the things that needed to be done at home. Kids school activities, making food for the family, kids homework and sport.....I dread being sick!!


at last we found the cure for being sick at last!!

so the last 3 week I am me at last!! with loads of work that have been left behind!! but here I am!!

We are in the 3rd quarter of this school year and boy it have been full of challenge and the keep twins happy was not all smile and fun.

I look at them and think why do they need to be this big already!! ( I still cry every time I hold someone's baby in my arms!)

this is mommy"s little netball player

 

On his way to score!

Weekends are still their favorite!!!

 

In this weeks Vrouekeur Magazine my story of "How my dreams come true"

In the school holiday my book was available at the Media 24 book-shop-tent. At the KKNK, its a art and show festival in Oudtshoorn in the Karoo.

 

 

I still think INFERTILITY SUCKS!!

 

 

Thank for all that bought my book!

 

This was our first day of the rest of our school life. Very excited... it last for 3 days!!

... and the first afternoon busy with the first homework after 2 minutes... mom look !! and this is what he done!!! the next twelfth years will be  very long!!

we want to play !!!!!!!

and the first athletics of school start. I just love sport so this new Time Zone in my kids life where they can do sport is a highlight in this mothers life. To be next to the field cheering them on , and boy I can yell my lungs out!  is all worth it.

It was rainy and muddy and that was the biggest fun !!more than the running

 

 

 and there was more running.....what an experience!.

and this wonderful sister is her brothers biggest supporter!!!! making flags for every race!

Welcome back !!! 2018 is flying in more speed than ever!! I have miss a month cause January is gone with Feb knocking at the door.

My holiday break was marvelous!!  I enjoy it to the last minute and now....

the twins have start school !!! never thought this day will happen ever and now it here for real!

My whole world have turn into a routine!!! how horrible! I hate this same old same old but!! new challenges are in our life and its fun!!.

Kids love school for the first two weeks and then realize this is going to be like this for the next 12 years!

HI Mom do the school know who's coming??

 

                                                  I will Love the homework!!

Do you like my school hairstyle?? so unique!! so me!

 

School will be a breeze! can't wait for the sport to start!

Don't worry mom! we have each other we will be fine!!

 

 

....and so a brand new chapter start the this house!!!

 

 

                                To all that's going to take a break.....HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!

if its in the sun or...

 

snow!!! just have FUN xxxxx

 

 

See you all in 2018, I will also take a break. The past year so many things happen and the biggest one for me was defiantly my book  ZERO GUARANTEES!! that was launch. Thanx to all that bought the book.

 

and for you that are still busy with the IF journey I know this time of the year are hard. Hugs Hugs xx

 

 

Funny Faces

You how you always want to take this beautiful pictures of your kids..... to show them someday when they all grown up...

Well for the last two years the moment I get my camera out the twins only do funny faces!!!

Then I beg and beg cause I want a nice pic.... it don't work.

So now I took the ridiculous fanny faces photo and when they grown up it will be the only ones and then I can just think the ...."OOO No Mom... why did you took the photo?????

2nd try...

third try....???? it was in a shopping Mall

their  Grade R graduation night

 

 

at the concert....

 

 

Look how much they enjoy the swim....

 

do I like this Fanta??

 

so one in n 100000000 I hope to get a No Funny Face one.....